Grad school is hard. It’s overwhelming. It’s stressful. Yet, through it all, I know it’s going to be worth it.
I’m not sure how it got to be the end of October already. Honestly, I remember looking at my planner at the end of September thinking, “how am I ever doing to survive October?”. Yet, here I am. Still alive, still surviving. October has been good to me despite the workload. I got to race a mountain bike race, watch Eagles games with Josh, and this weekend I’m trying out a cyclocross race for the first time – that should be interesting!
School wise though….group projects have taken over my life and that’s ok. We’re all surviving together, aiding in each other’s progression day by day and week by week. Some projects have challenged us more than other (don’t even get me started on Colombia, South America!) and some of our toughest projects of the semester are still looming over us.
Do you know how empowering it is to sit in a classroom with 29 classmates who all have the same passion, motivation, and end-goal as you do? Every day, despite stress and worry, I feel invigorated by the fact that I am working towards a dream. I want to have “OTR” after my name, and every day, every class, every stressful project, all 3 exams I have on back-to-back-to-back days next week are pushing me towards those three little letters.
My attempt at blogging every week has obviously not worked. My life has been consumed by projects, studying, readings, and various other assignments. Running has been put on the back burner and some days it makes me really sad. Many days I force myself to run 2 miles because in my mind taking a 20 minute break is 20 minutes less I have for schoolwork. Yet, I complain on a daily basis that my neck and back chronically ache because I sit in the classroom and in front of my computer and books for an excessive amount of time each day. It’s ironic, isn’t it?
Every sacrifice, every hardship, every challenge is bringing me closer to my goal. I try to be mindful of this daily and I am lucky to have a support system who reminds me of this when I can’t seem to shake my negative and worrisome thoughts. My mind is oftentimes too tired to formulate descriptive words of my experiences so far; so, for now, you’ll be left with a scattered blog post to decipher.
For now, I have three exams to study for for next week, a 20+ page group paper to finish by the first Monday of November, a community observation assignment to complete, a lifespan task analysis video to film, a wedding to attend, I can go on and on.
This is grad school. Grad school is unrelenting. This is my life.